By JUSTIN KENDALL
Eleven days before her death, Jackson survived a bombing at the house where she was staying in Leavenworth.
Earlier this morning, I looked up Fox’s and Jackson’s MySpace pages.
Fox’s page, titled “Only The Strong Shall Survive,” features images of slain rapper Tupac Shakur.
Fox has posted a family portrait.
He’s also uploaded pictures of him with his “homies.”
Jackson’s MySpace page cryptically reads “Only God Shall Judge Me.” The expectant mother added sparkly slogans such as “Pregnant with a Princess,” "Pregnant with my first” and “Expecting a baby girl.”
But Jackson poured her heart out in a couple of brokenhearted blog entries. In a post titled “Do I ask for too much …” on September 13, Jackson wondered if she expected too much of her baby’s daddy.
“Is it too much to ask that someone would want to commit themselves to a relationship with me, and look forward to the future together. To raise a child with me? To want to fall in love with me...,” Jackson wrote.
“I'm so mad at myself for getting myself in this situation...i feel so lost, i don't know how to not care about the guy that i'm going to have a child with. I've been so understanding, forgiving, and caring. Even if he doesn't want a relationship, i wish he would be honest about it...i have no clue what he wants, how he feels about me.
“I hold on to my one day, that i will know how it feels to be loved and cared about by the man i want to be with. They say good things come to those who are patient...i am trying to hold on...”
On Fox’s page, Jackson commented five times with flirty messages that referred to Fox as “hooker.” Jackson’s last public message to Fox was a “get well soon” greeting with the image of a teddy bear on July 19. Jackson wrote: “Thought this was cute...i almost sent you a cute lil kitten one, but you dont like cats...cuz your mean...but i do hope you start feeling better sweetie!!”
On October 17, 2006, Jackson tried to get Fox’s attention with this post: “hey hooker...why you gotta be shy...can't call...write...damn im not feeling the love anymore...haha talk to you later cutie”
A month later, on November 26, 2006, Jackson blogged her scorn and warned heartless guys: “stay the fuck away from me. i don't have time for the bullshit, the lies, the fuckin head games.”
“at least have the maturity to talk to me about it and tell me whats going on...i'm a big girl and i'm not a crazy bitch that's gonna stalk you and make your life hell...i'll leave you alone or whatever but you have to fucking tell me what is goin on in your head...not a mind reader here!!”
Jackson also posted ultrasound photos of her baby in an album on her site.